Could I stay ? stay from my childhood's feel. When I love everything without felt hurt, without worried about anything ?

Could I find another reason for keep feel alive ? Yah, I know I'm alive but sometimes I don't feel that Ii'm alive. Everyone walked away crossing my path and pretend didn't see me after that. Ah, I really a ghost. 

Could I shout out my feels ? Could I stop just accept someone happiness, sadness, anger, dissapointement and start share each other feels ? Honestly when I give my affection, it means you are special. I don't give it to everyone. 

Could I transform ? from nothing to something ? 

and....

Could you stay and see me ?

Ah, no. I don't expect anything. Just keep going ! 

I have resemble analogy with these Hayao Miyazaki's movies (one of my friend recommend Spirit Away before)

Princess Mononoke

Arrietty

Spirit Away

Three of them told me ....

for loving sincerely even without saying "love" they know they're love each other, protect each other, and didn't expect anything. 

for always find reasons for keep alive even they're live apart, they always know that they have each other's part.

for don't become a "no face", not loving just obsessed and expect something.